瑞玢的左眼

today's my last art class in this university (i hope)
Huber was on my ass about speaking up during the critique. Guess he understood that it was my last day, I should at least say something about my work. Glad that he had warmed up to me in the end, i could tell. He used to hate me when i was taking his Drawing I class..lol..
and as I set myself apart after the exam, I finally got the courage to talk to Baily..! I decided to get a free T-shirt from registration office, so I waited till him left the SS to BA for his class. It was 30 minutes after my colour theory exam time. I went back home to change. when i got back to the Temple, I was really late. i thought i missed him already. but i waited anyway..
thank fucking god, i waited. He walked out of the SS around 10:30. he was late..lol..so i walked outta the Temple quickly. this is the second time i've done it. the first time i was ignoring him, just walk my way towards the BA to take care of my FA business. This time i finally got the courage to say something to him.
"Morning, Mr. Baily." I said.
"Morning. How're you doing?" he asked nicely.
I gave him a hollow smile, speechlessly.
He understood how I felt - finals are killing me. So he laughed. "Just hanging there, (huh)?"
As the conversation begain. We walked forward together, side by side.
I couldn't remember what I said or what HE said. But then he just popped the question, "Just keep showing up, huh?" or something like that. For a second there, I thought he meant I was always chasing him. I didn't ask him what that meant, nor did I answer it directly.
"Yeah, well. I just finished taking my art exam. I think I blew it." I said, changing the subject.
"What's it about?" He asked.
"Color Theory?" I replied.
"Oh, my." He said. Then implied that "theory" is always hard.
He asked if it had essay or answering questions, or was it just multiple choice. I told him it was matching. Just terminology and all.
Then he asked me a question. I didn't quite understand. It was something like, "Does _____ match?"
I looked at him. Just shrugged.
He laughed again.
"Are you ready for tomorrow?" He asked.
"[scoff]Absolutely not." I joked.
He laughed.
"There's no way I'm passing that class." I added.
"What class? MY class?!" He was shocked.
"Yeah...." I sigh.
"No... I thought you were doing better than that." He said.
I paused, then said, "Making Cs right now."
"C's not bad," he said, "It's passing."
"Yeah, well.." I didn't know how to answer that at the moment, but then I soon added, "Don't like taking a C, though." I laughed.
"Yeah. Me, too." He said.
"My dad would probably kill me." I laughed again.
"Your dad would probably kill you, if what..?" He didn't understand what i meant.
"If i make a C." I said. "Both of my parents are college professors." I added.
"Oh, my." He was shocked again.
By this time, we've already reached the door to the BA building. We took the long way. He usually takes the short-cut through the woods. But not today. He walked with me and talked with me.
He opened the door for me. I walked through then open the second door myself. Because I didn't want to let him think that I walked this way with him on purpose, or I intended to talk with him, so I didn't wait on him after i got into the BA. I just walked straight to the stairs, then walked down slowly because my legs were shaking from the lack of sleep.
"What do they teach?" He asked. To continue the conversation.
I was happy.
"[scoff] English." I replied.
"Wow. Both of them?" He was in shock, again!
"Yeah." I said. Then told him about my mother just got her Ph. D in Literature and Language here this summer.
He asked if my parents correct my english all the time.
I shook my head and gave him a serious look to implied "Oh, yeah..All the time." But I didn't say a word.
He understood. "Yeah. My mother does that, too. Grammar and all."
"I hate Grammar." I laughed.
He laughed, too.
We've finally reached to his classroom.
"See you later." was the last sentence he said to me before he walked into the room.
"Bye." I smiled. But didn't turn around.
We both didn't look at each other when we said goodbye.
It was the nicest chat I've ever had with anyone on campus. I still can't believe he asked me all kinds of personal questions. I thought the "Good morning" part would just kill it. Never thought the conversation could extended all the way to our parents and all. I wasn't less in shock in him than he was in me.
My, oh, my. What am I going to do tomorrow? After the exam, everything will be over. There's no way I'm taking that course again. I'm too embarrassed to take it again. And I don't want to waste money on re-takes. Guess I better study hard. Oh, damn. I'm getting my paper back tomorrow. I bet I'd so laugh my ass of on myself about that paper I wrote.
Wish me luck tomorrow..

PS. Saw Eric crossing the stree to the parking lot around 7:20pm when i went back to century to do my laundry. I would've drive pass the street to say hi to him if i wasn't wearing some dumb T-shirt with a shit-face. But I did see his car. It looked like his brother's. It was that same old black truck. I'll probably see him tomorrow.

after the history exam. i went to our fake starbucks for some food, cuz i didn't really eat anything at all. when i walked out with latte and cookie, Sean was on his way to the caf (i suppose). we stood outside the starbucks (or outside the library) and talked for about an hour or so..
we went through everything..lol..books, movies, weather, classes..etc..XD
then mariana called. we went inside the library to see her brother. me and Sean stood in a group of mexicans, it was funny..lol..
that's pretty much my day..Sean let me wore his glove. He tried to hold my hands, but i didn't really let him..i asked him what exam he has tomorrow, then i let him go to the caf. i just went back home to grab my govt book for mariana to make copies.
slept for 2 hours till fucking juan salas called me and woke me up. motherfucking fuckhead loser.. i saw that private number calling, i knew it was gonna be him.. i didn't pick up his calls for a few times, so he quit calling for a while.. now he fucking calls again, i mean, WTF..! i answered it, like i was giving him another chance. but as soon as i found out that he knew i was preparing for my finals, but he called to bug me anyway, i fucking hung up on him....
motherfucker, i swear to fucking god... stupid dickhead..
gave me the damn fucking headache, i could barely work on my art when i got to the WTFA building around 8pm..
fucker....there's nothing in the world i would love more than to see him die.......

famous quote from Dawson's creek.
friday was the last lecture day. we went over the 2 exams we took this semester. Tiffanie asked me what classes am i taking next semester. my mind was on something else, or someone else, so it took me quite a while to answer her question. i couldn't really think of anything, so i just said Journalism, because that was the only word that popped up in my head at the moment. she told me in detail how to handle that class and all. very helpful. i hated her in the beginning of the semester. guess we ended up liking each other. at least she likes me in the end. strange. guess Baily knows the way with people. he's Nietzsche fan after all. philosophy's the greatest mistery in the world.
i felt the connection serval times during the lecture. because he was right next to the overhead, i could see his face clearly. and because i sat in the front role today..
to be able to go into his office, i left my paper in the art room.
so i went to him after class and asked him if he would be in his office this afternoon. he generously told me that he'd be there till about three.
i brought my paper over around 12:40. he was still on his computer. i knew i should've waited, but it was too cold outside, i wanted to go back home. so i went into his office and gave him the paper. and apologized about the paints i got on the paper. he laughed and said, "that's alright."
so i put the paper down on his desk and told him that "they're dry. I promise they won't get on anything else."
friday ended absolutely.

yesterday the temperture went down to 18F.. but i slept through the day, so when i finally woke up around 7pm, it wuz already pure white outside..
too bad my art class wuz 8am. cuz the campus didn't close till like 11..
basically means Baily's classes all got cancelled..
too bad i wuz planning on hanging out in the BA building this afternoon..*sigh*
anyways, glad today the campus wuz opened.. it wuz closed eariler, but opened back on at 10am..
i went to history class, got extra credit, cuz no one really showed up..
i went into the SS building in the exact same time with him. but today he went in from the other side.. guess he thought no one would show up in his class or something.. he wuz in the office the whole time i suppose..during his 10am class.. it wuz kinda weird..
he saw me walked in as i saw him [of course, we both went in from the doors across the hall.. like right infront of each other]..lol..
the cute dog that's been hanging out in the SS building passed me by, i jumped, but then soon smiled.. it's such a beautiful dog...
i don't know why he was staring at me..maybe he thought i was going in to see him..so while he was opening his office's door, he stood there and stared at me when i smiled at the dog but then soon realized that i wuz really late, so ran straight to the class room..
it wuz the same class room we had govt.. don't know what he would think..
he probably thought i got the time wrong..lol..it'd would be funny..
history class was boring..
govt class was, too.. we just talked over the camelot..what we did, what could've been improved, what were the differences between the book and hte real world..etc
i was playing with my scarf, he thought i raised my hand..lol.. it wuz hilarious..XD".. guess he must've been checking out on me all the time..lol
that was it for the day.....
days when he sits in front of me are over....
everything back to normal...
he's the professor...
he stands on the stage...
and i'm the student..
i sit behind the desk...
i listen while he talks....
i take notes...
and i suppose to participate, though i never did..
everything's going back to normal....
and it's near the end of the semester.....
what would i do... when it finally comes to an end.....?

i was so exciting about the class today..
today's the last day of simulation. it's so sad that today's the last day he will be sitting in front of me. but i'm also exciting about seeing him. ever since last class day, i knew there will be a greater chance for us to talk, which was true.
mariana walked in and stood by my desk, talking to me. soon, he walked in as well.. guess that cute dog that me and lucy saw on monday was here again. because when he came up to the desk in front of me, mariana asked if it was his dog. and he told us that it was smith's dog [he thinks]
he said "it's a beautiful dog."
i go, "yeah.."
he was like, "i almost let him in."
i laughed, "should have."
he goes, "but somebody pulled him away.. didn't wanna get into trouble i guess"
it was short. but it was great talk.. could've been better if it was about cats..lol..
it was awesome that he was looking at me when we were all talking, not mariana...XD

good new, i didn't get fired...XD!
6 to 1 to keep funding the museum.
4 to 3 to keep me and tiffanie on board..!
fucking rad..!
i love it..

during the re-election of the councilors, 4 runners went up there present their plateforms. it was funny as hell..
when archi talked about giving police the power to prevent crimes from happening instead of using them to solve problems and crime.. i laughed out loud and murmurred "minority report"
he turned and looked at me and laughed. bet he felt the same way as i did..-///////-
today's weather was weird.. i wuz sneezing the whole time..
he said "bless you" again...

of course those are not exactly his words.. he used some adjective i couldn't remember what were they..
but today when we were talking about the "obscene photographs" issue, he was really supportive. he stood on my side, and defensed for me. when everyone else was talking about firing me, he turned around and asked me privately "are you gonna let these [*****] people kick you out?"
today, somebody took the desk in front of me away, i wasn't able to save one for him. so when he got to the classroom and saw his spot was empty, he just stared at me. i looked up to him and generously asked "would you like to take this one?"
he smiled, "sure. whatever works."
"i can move back.." i said.
so i moved back a seat. he sat on my spot today.....
i'm glad i did that. this way i could be closer to tiffanie, because, our issue came up unexpectedly..
i didn't say a word during the discussing and all.. i felt him turning around looking at me several times. but i still refused to participate..lol..
victoria and lots of others were on my side as well. it was fun, during the discussing.. vic helped alot..! her defense was perfect..! i laughed so hard.. i even gave her a clap afterwards..XD and when it came down to me, she asked me "aren't you gonna fight for it?"
of course the lazy worm in me said, "well, i have my attorney.."
then everybody laughed. including him..
it was awesome.. he was just like a classmate.. a friend who sat in front of me.. talked to me quietly during class, everytime i tried to be funny, he'd laugh and be supportive.. i sneezed he would say "bless you"..
me and tiffanie gave a great show to everyone today. and my joke put to a perfect ending for the discussion. god, i will always remember he turned and looked at me softly.. the way he laughed was just like a child.. cute as hell...

Baily.
M:[sneezed]
B:bless you
M:thank you..

Sean.
M:can i have your hair?
S:no, it's mine! [mugged]

oh, my god! did i get paints on your?
sweet! [check the jacket] nah, you didn't..

Baily.
B:can i have this?
M:hum?
B:does anyone sit here?
M:no one sits there..

haven't really seen Eric in quit a while, so today, since Aubrey didn't come to Colour Theory class, i didn't have her following me everywhere, i decided to dress up a bit to find Eric...
it was freezing cold, i was wearing the long dress i bought in Taiwan, with that black/white stripe high-collar shirt inside, then with 鬼洗 jeans... also brooks' brother's hat... i was looking all girly and shit today, i'd say...lol..
as i waited downstairs of the BA building. i look over some flyers, and i almost got my ass busted when i peaked through the stairs to check if he's out already because he was standing right there talking to his professor...Orz... i walked towards him. he tried to scared me as usual. i waited on him while he was talking about his major changing stuff with the professor. i threw my scarf at him while they were talking so i could put my hat back on..lol.. then we stood outside the BA and talked for a while.. just random stuff.. a lot of things.. i asked him how was the concert, the halloween party thingy.. he said taht they never went.. he was wearing that white hat again today.. i missed that billabong hat..

Bus got me to Taipei around 6ish, at the train station. I actually got there before Sartre did..lol..Kama was at the book store, so me and my queen walked all the way down there to find him. But he wasn't exactly in there. He was sitting outside, enjoying his music..(-_-) We didn't take the bus or subway. We've already walked pretty far, so why not just walk all the way to the hotel. We met Luny outside the subway station, then to McDonald's for supper. Kama was starving..lol..Sunny was always late..No doubt of that. We waited about half an hour, he finally showed up. Yep, still nicely dressed.. Black is the safest colour. And it suits him well, too.
We checked in a four-bedroom, so me and Sartre were outside waiting when they were at the front desk checking in. Then we just walked in there like we lived there..lol.. First time, we even ran into the fucking wrong elevator..lmao..Luny said ladies could pick the bed first. Although I picked the cornor one, Sartre ended up sleeping on that bed, and I felt asleep on the bed next to her, which supposed to be hers, but everyone sat on it and fucked it up..lol.. Don't remember how I passed out or when. Should be around 5am-ish.. No idea how the fuck did we end up staying up so late. We picked up Kevsod around 9ish, if I remember correctly. Then the TV got all of us. Luny's PSP got Kevsod good..lol.. He couldn't stop playing it. I think I fell sleep watching him playing it.
Didn't wake up till about 8 or 9am.. When those crazy reded fuckers woke me up..! (=_=) I bet I woke up with an angry shit face looking out to the window, just listen to them screaming bullshit. And, of course, that was the time I realized that Kev was next to me all night..lol.. After we woke up, Luny awakened as well. Kev jumped into his bed, I just looked at the window for a few seconds, then walked back to my own bed all sleepy and shit. But soon, Luny jumped in as well..lol.. That was the moment I realized why everybody said it was freezing cold last night, but I didn't feel a thing at all.. 'cause I got people warm the damn bed for me all alone..XD"
Luny went out in the morning, said that he'd be back around noon. So the four of us, Sartre, me, Kev, and Kama went for lunch ourselves. Couldn't really taste a thing, but sure the pasta were awesome.. My brain didn't start working till I drank down that huge assed coffee. Guess that's what happens when you got addicted to caffeine :p It's so not fucking good.. And the worst part was that I bought 2 packs of ciggies right afterwards..lol..And NO! I didn't smoke them at all..! Trust me..!
Luny came back after me and Sartre checked in a new room, three-bedroom. Then we rushed to pick up our seat numbers (Is that what it was?). Thanks to Sunny, we didn't get number one..lol.. Oh, well, it didn't really matter, anyway.. Because Sartre kissed me, so nothing else mattered...XD.. There's only one thing better than orgasm - kissing a chick in front of the crowd

Bus got me to Taipei around 6ish, at the train station. I actually got there before Sartre did..lol..Kama was at the book store, so me and my queen walked all the way down there to find him. But he wasn't exactly in there. He was sitting outside, enjoying his music..(-_-) We didn't take the bus or subway. We've already walked pretty far, so why not just walk all the way to the hotel. We met Luny outside the subway station, then to McDonald's for supper. Kama was starving..lol..Sunny was always late..No doubt of that. We waited about half an hour, he finally showed up. Yep, still nicely dressed.. Black is the safest colour. And it suits him well, too.
We checked in a four-bedroom, so me and Sartre were outside waiting when they were at the front desk checking in. Then we just walked in there like we lived there..lol.. First time, we even ran into the fucking wrong elevator..lmao..Luny said ladies could pick the bed first. Although I picked the cornor one, Sartre ended up sleeping on that bed, and I felt asleep on the bed next to her, which supposed to be hers, but everyone sat on it and fucked it up..lol.. Don't remember how I passed out or when. Should be around 5am-ish.. No idea how the fuck did we end up staying up so late. We picked up Kevsod around 9ish, if I remember correctly. Then the TV got all of us. Luny's PSP got Kevsod good..lol.. He couldn't stop playing it. I think I fell sleep watching him playing it.
Didn't wake up till about 8 or 9am.. When those crazy reded fuckers woke me up..! (=_=) I bet I woke up with an angry shit face looking out to the window, just listen to them screaming bullshit. And, of course, that was the time I realized that Kev was next to me all night..lol.. After we woke up, Luny awakened as well. Kev jumped into his bed, I just looked at the window for a few seconds, then walked back to my own bed all sleepy and shit. But soon, Luny jumped in as well..lol.. That was the moment I realized why everybody said it was freezing cold last night, but I didn't feel a thing at all.. 'cause I got people warm the damn bed for me all alone..XD"
Luny went out in the morning, said that he'd be back around noon. So the four of us, Sartre, me, Kev, and Kama went for lunch ourselves. Couldn't really taste a thing, but sure the pasta were awesome.. My brain didn't start working till I drank down that huge assed coffee. Guess that's what happens when you got addicted to caffeine :p It's so not fucking good.. And the worst part was that I bought 2 packs of ciggies right afterwards..lol..And NO! I didn't smoke them at all..! Trust me..!
Luny came back after me and Sartre checked in a new room, three-bedroom. Then we rushed to pick up our seat numbers (Is that what it was?). Thanks to Sunny, we didn't get number one..lol.. Oh, well, it didn't really matter, anyway.. Because Sartre kissed me, so nothing else mattered...XD.. There's only one thing better than orgasm - kissing a chick in front of the crowd

tired as shit..again..!
Rosas went home around 7am [she stayed over night last night to work on history shit with me]. i took a shower, then aubrey came, we went to class. watched an awesome video about colors in color theory class..
then aubs helped me moved a sfew boxes to Mr. Lo's place. she actually liked taht place..lol.. she was even considering moving next door..lol..
after i dropped her off at the caf, i went to the SS building, hoping to see Eric there if he took that class i expected.. only i didn't see him, saw that long hair guy instead..Orz..i guess i felt equally happy as if i saw Eric. this time, although he was sitting outside SS with his friends, andi was just walking towards it in the crowd, he saw me and smiled at me anyway.. no pretending not seeing each other or anything. he even waved at me with a smile. God, that was so sweet and surprising.. i bet his friends were all like "who the fuck is she?" LOL.. i was real happy..even the class i was gonna check for eric had already left, i was still happy.. i gave him back a big smile and waved at him back.. he was wearing those sunglasses again...