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i got my winged cthulhu mug today >was i promised Kyle to go with him to the library and study math, but james and ben showed up at noon. so i wuz forced to hang out with them. we ordered pizza as usual. then we were waiting on aubs to show up cuz i know she gets off work at 1pm. but ended up she didn't. Rosas wuz suppose to come with me and kyle, but she couldn't make it either. so me, ben, and james when up there to find him and tell him that i can't make it. and james can maybe see Eric too lol
while we got up there, Kyle wuz just on his way out. so there were Kyle, Ben, me, and james. 4 ppl, commerce ppl reunion lol quote from Luch's dad..lol
few minutes later, Eric came out too. i sorta saw him sitting in there when kyle opened the door. he smiled while i wuz talking to the rest 3 of them. i didn't really get a chance to talk to him one on one, cuz there were just too many ppl out there, and they were all friends. if i completely left them out when Eric showed up, that won't be nice lol. a girl came out and talked to him for about 10 minutes while he wuz up there waiting on the guy. i swear that blonde bitch pissed me off so bad. Eric obviously wanted to come into our convo, but she just won't leave him alone Orz ass
but i saw him today.. that made me happy already. like i saw laine earlier at midnight till 2am. he wuz messing with me, that wuz unusual..Orz so many things are pissing me off right now, and they made me so angry! but seeing those two people just made me forget about everything. Eric has that kind of slow and gentle way of talking, only his voice can calm me down. Laine's the one i usually hang around with. we hav so many things in common, the one guy i cannot lose. today i think wuz the first time Eric sees me hanging out with MY friends and stuff. i bet he felt weird cuz i hang out with all those big guys lol james tried to pick me up, and he laughed. i like this kind of moments, when we say nothing at all, but checking out each other every few minutes lol
i completely fucked up with dyl, but i know it still that he and laine will still be the most important ppl of all. i wish things are working good between them. all these dramas that hav been happening, i want them to stop right now!
i sat on the porch and talked to aubs for a long time, about everything and shit. she didn't wanna talk to james because all the ben deal thingy.. that wuz finally the truth. but i couldn't tell them that because it comes out differently from me and that would piss james off even more..
stop now, i can't take this anymore
stop telling me that 'you know bloody well why we can't all be friends again.'
stop telling me that 'you need to stop hanging out with those ppl..'
just stop telling me what should i do or what shouldn't i do..
time to get away from all of these. maybe that's why i fall for Eric so quickly and stuff. because he's out of our social circle. and its time for me to get the fuck outta here for a while.......

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