瑞玢的左眼

lots of shit has gone down here these days...
isn't best friends not enough? even though we both wanted more..
i thought the moment has passed already, but talking to him over hours and hours is just bring back all the feelings and unfinisheed business. why taking me to the concert when your g/f is going to, though she's going with her g/f's? why didn't ask Dylan? i know he can always give me the answers i wanted to hear or the answers i needed to satisfy my expectations. i know he's the one, as always, cuz that's what soulmates mean!
buy has the moment passed yet?
i dare not ask. cuz i know it will all be settle when he comes back home to me or to dylan.. there might not be the answer which can satisfy everybody, especially not me, but all good things must come to an end....... maybe i'm the one who should give the hopes up. these years has been a tesk! of letting go and holding on. i let go of him cuz i held on to our friendship. i let him go cuz i hav someone else on my mind. i let him go cuz we are too much alike. but somehow in the middle of all these... i'm still holding on him tightly.........