瑞玢的左眼

this semester has been really hard for me..
i needed the time to fit in a new school, a complete new world, but i wind up meeting a sick-ass racist professor.
while i wuz having a good time with all my friends when they came to cheer me up, a phone call from the family and updated me a cruel fact of the death of my aunt.
these weeks i've been really stressing out for the mid-term in school and all the fights that my friends are having, somehow, somewhat, i'm in the middle of it..
and this week, Laine passed out in the hospital, and following... i lost another 2 important ppl....in 2 months, 3 people died..
in 2 months, my dearest friend just got back not long ago, but wind up in the hospital..
in 2 months, my soulmates triangle fell apart..my best friends triangle fell apart also..
in 2 months, there's new love. but it just doesn't seem enough to cover all the pain..

this week, i had a huge assed fight with aubs just to let james and her can become friends again. at the second they finally squared things out, out triangle is back on track. but it didn't last long cuz i finally got sick and tired then gave in.... i closed my msn and left them....
this week, when me, laine, and dylan finally got along together, laine got sick..
on my way back from the hospital, a phone call from James, one of our high school classmates died.
today, a phone call from James again..he's grams died, too.

an aunt i've never seen her in my entire life suffered from illness and finally passed away.
a friend died of his breathing problem..
and james's grams refused to do the surgery..

i barely know these ppl. when do i care about them?
and when did i stop caring for all these....