瑞玢的左眼

after all the bad shit that has been happening recently..
actually, i got no one to blame, cuz i obviously brought it upon myself..
anyways, the good has finally come..Dylan called me few minutes ago.. i wasn't going to pick it up cuz my mom and my bro are here. i let it rang for a while, then i picked it up anyway..
he just got off work. i never expect him to call me, not in a million year.. not after what happened.. but he did...
although for a second there, i kind of expect it to be laine, but it was him..
normal greeting.. normal convos.. then he told me that the band is getting back together!?
i was in shock..!
since when? how..? are they in town?
all kinds of questions just popped outta my mouth without me knowing it..
since last week or two weeks ago, he said..
Eric's staying, he added..

i knew it......
i've known it all alone.....
i knew he would stay....
i knew it couldn't be the last time we saw each other...
it didn't seem like it...
he wuzn't saying goodbye to me neither.....
god.....
i can't believe this.....
although i've known it all alone and prayed for it to happen,
but when it really happened,
it seems still kinda too good to be true...

i've spent too long struggling with what am i gonna do with my life and why the fuck did i let go of everything i've ever had...
i needed something to take my mind off of these shit...
and there he was...
saved me...again...
*sigh*