瑞玢的左眼

i cannot believe it.....................today wuz the day for aubs to meet sarah.
she came over to my place after work, we hung out till james called and told us that they were on their way. and it wuz around 4pm. jeez, took them long enough.
dylan called me like 3 times! cuz they were taking way fucking long..lol
we went back to aubrey's place. but they didn't say anything to each other at all. it wuz awkward i swear..... made me nervous too. so i wuz just playing the piano cuz i didn't know what else i could do. i supposed to call dylan and tell him that james is here, but i didn't cuz i didn't want him to come to aubrey's place since she doesn't like him that much.
but he did called again while all of us were at aubrey's. so i told him 'sry, i forgot to call you back..' lol
before that, i called juan..cuz he called me earlier when aubs wuz with me, so i couldn't talk to him...
he asked if i wuz ok. i told him um alright....
it still hurts even now. and i do feel different.. i walk funny too.. but um alright.
i called him back and told him not to worry about anything. he didn't do anything wrong, he just got me changed my mind.. everything wuz kool. no need to feel bad and shit..
even now, i still wondering if i made the right decision or not. i guess i'll never know till later on..... but i do know that he's the person i can really trust. there's something about him and i knew this would happen sooner or later. it wuz unexpected cuz it wuz our first date and shit, but it did slip my mind before. and i really got nnothing to regret.
i got off the phone with him. then
we went to pick him up at his place, after aubrey got off the phone with his dad, then we went straight to the hospital..

BUT!
MOTHER FUCKER, I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD........
when we got there. there wuz NOBODY in the fucking room!!

early morning, he sent me a message through msn said that he's back. i didn't believe him cuz it didn't sound like him at all....
so i guess we wre all wrong, then.....

we were so mad, but we still decided to forget it and went to Applebee's for dinner. dylan wanted to buy me dinner, but i didn't feel like eating anything. so i told the waitress that we were sharing one lol
aubs made me some eggs earlier, they tasted funny LOL didn't really make me sick, but it wuzn't that great either..Orz
anyways, me and sarah had sorta problem of eating in front of people. but aubs wanted to make me eat so bad since i've lost like 20lb. for the past few weeks. so at the end of our meal, they told the applebee's that it wuz my b-day and had them brought me a fucking cake and ice cream...............................
=口=
FUCKING HELL, I KNOW, RIGHT!?
GODDAMMIT.......FUCKERS I SWEAR LOL
Dylan wuz laughing so bad...everybody wuz.......
i just took dylan's hat and covered my face the whole frigging time...Orz
jeeez.
but anyways, it wuz fun....

i let dylan drove my car today.. it wuz the second time.. since he loved my car so much and i wuz tired of driving, so i wuz like, why not. i trust him anyway.
then we went to the tatoo place and he got a Zildjian tatoo on his left arm...
i wuz there watching the whole time, it wuz fucking scary as shit....
but anyways...they left early cuz that place wuz kinda creepy..Orz
after we got back. we went to find everybody..we went to lil' chacho's to find megan, but she left early today, so we went to walmart and find ben..but instead, we saw Laine, brandon, amber, and laine's gf - brittany..
i almost slapped the shit outta him for just checking out the hospital like that.. he looked fucking horrible as shit! they were gonna stay at brandon's for a while, dylan wanted to go, but i didn't.
so we went to find ben, then went to megan's...but ended up at my place watching mr. and mrs. smith....
dylan let ben drove my car and we were on ben's car when we left megan's house....it wuz the first time i saw my car running in front of me lol felt kinda funny..