after asking Matt for a hug and the chemical change between us which we both felt it, today was a bit awkward... last night, i waited him to get off work to get on msn, which he did. then he started saying his scholarship got upgraded, so he'll be getting money back.
he asked if i was up, i was like, yeah, sadly, cuz i got a psy test first thing tomorrow. he wanted me to go to sleep and worry about it tomorrow since i was so tired. i said it was a terrible advice and he could've said good luck or buy me coffee. he said that he'd buy me coffee if it'll cheer me up. and that was the moment i started to feel the awkwardness between us... we went over the plans for tomorrow, ended up meeting in the library at 11am for coffee, then 1pm after our classes for a fancy lunch. i made him walked around with me on the campus, purposely ended up in fine arts so i could get a chance to see baily. but we stood outside the door till almost 12, he didn't come out. so i gave up. i let him to go class and i had to go take my stupid psy test anyway... l leaned over to his shoulder, he naturally put his arms around me and gave me a full hug, a very tight one, i might add. that was the first time him hugging me around my shoulders, not my arms around his neck (because usually, i'd reach out to him and gave him a hug first) i admit, it felt nice and loved.
i finished my test in like 18 minutes..lol..when i walked outta the science building towards ss building, i finally saw baily..! some kid caught him in a long assed conversation. while i was walking towards them, they were just standing outside talking. he noticed me quickly as i noticed him. i fastened my pace, walking on the grass, just to go to him. i could see that even he was caught in the middle of the conversation with another person, he still took every chance he got to check me out. i saw him turning his head towards me every once in a while. when i finally got to the sidewalk they stood, i purposely kept near to the other side of the banquette. when i finally reached to the point where we could both see each other clearly, he turned and looked at me as i looked up to him with a very awkward smile. but i looked back down immediately, so i didn't get a chance to see if he had smiled at me back or not... i only noticed that he tried to end the conversation after i walked passed him... he fastened his pace no more than 3 seconds after i passed them.. we didn't walk in the ss building from the same door, but that was okay... he saw me.. he actually turned and looked at me... after not being in the fine arts building at 11am as my usual routine.. he looked for me... that was all i needed......
later on today, me and matt went to paesano's after talking to his cousin for about 15 minutes. she's actually a really cool person. i bet she noticed that i have been hanging out with matt pretty often.. yesterday when i said bye to her, she actually looked at me and asked, "it's marian, right?" we're starting to get to know each other, i guess... today she noticed my nails... and hers were really similar, too!!! black and white.. mine were poker dots and hers were stripes..
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