瑞玢的左眼

for some reason, i knew he'd be at school today even if he didn't have to give any exam. also i knew Sean will be taking his last exam as well. i was going to go up there at 10am, but i ended up chatting with Luny for a while. so when i got there, both of them were in already....Orz
just as i planned, he was sitting outside Baily's office... only if i could've gotten there a bit earlier.. Baily would've gotten a chance to see me with him...fuck..lol..
i wore the TH white shirt today. looking all boyish and formal.. and so did he..! he was just sitting there, wearing a white shirt and jean..just like me..i went up to him all smiling and shit..he smiled back.
we sat outside Baily's office till his exam started. this time....i fucking got his number...LOL!
we still hung out together after the exam because i was talking to calvin on the phone outside the SS building, well, not entirely outside, still inside the glass door. while i was talking, i think Baily just got out from the restroom and back into his office. cuz i heard a noise from the door, and a guy with glasses , maybe was about to walk out there, walked back in the other direction. i looked, he went into Baily's office. It didn't really look like him, only the glasses. but since he walked into that office, it had to be him, then... maybe because he was wearing some random dark green (i think) shirt, not his ordinary formal shirt and tie and light brown jacket, i couldn't really tell if that was him or not....
Sean came up to me while i was still on the phone..so i hung up on calvin..we went to the library till about 12, he left with that lady who worked in the front desk....
he gave me 2 hugs today. one was before the exam, the other one was before he left the library. both were real tight and loving.. i think i'm beginning to feel again...... hope it's a good thing..
the second time i actually hugged him back by just putting my arm on his waist.. he was so tiny.. so slimming.. the hug he gave me on monday was different.. the 2 hugs he gave me today were better.. maybe we ARE getting closer... i should probably text him....LOL
i missed Baily today. He totally left around 12, i think. i can't seem to remember if he left before me and Sean left or not...goddamn it........